Paranoid Navy Wife

So first let me explain my title. I am a PROUD Navy wife. My husband has been active duty in the United States Navy for 14 years! I have been his wife for 13 of those years and we've been together for over 14 years. I have seen him sworn into the Navy three times now, first time before he left for boot camp and he has re-enlisted two times since that day. I have said goodbye to him three times, before he left on long deployments, and countless times for different short deployments, schools, and other orders he had to follow.

Paranoid - my whole life, I have had someone, who burst my happiness bubble. Some have been blood related to me, some have been related by marriage, and most have just been total strangers really.

The only thing I'm not paranoid about is my marriage. I have a good marriage, an honest husband, and a loving daughter.

Big things I'm paranoid about. Dying in a car crash. I was in a really bad car accident when I was 19, and newly married. I could have died, and so now I am paranoid that it will happen. Dying in a plane crash - since 9/11 that scares me even more. I'm paranoid of snakes jumping out and getting me! I know crazy - right? I'm paranoid that people are always judging me, whether or not I am fat, ugly, what my clothes look like, how my hair looks, whether or not my tattoos are okay - paranoid of being judged about any and everything.

So I am starting this blog as way to post my feelings, frustrations, and paranoid obsessions. Maybe someone out there can help me overcome some of my paranoia - or they can just get a laugh out of my over-reactions! Either way, I'll get to get my feelings out and you'll get to read about it.

I am on day 36 of a long deployment - my husband will return in a few months. Since I waved goodbye to him and his ship, I have become even more paranoid. So look forward to the paranoid rantings of a depressed and deprived Navy wife!

Have a good Monday~