WAM!!

WAM = What A Month!!

March was amazing, scary, thrilling, dreamlike, and terrifying all at once. My son was born on March 24th and from the moment I laid eyes on him - he has been my new love! He is so perfect and amazing - that I spend a lot of time staring at him and just cuddling him.

His birth mother was so strong and brave - a true hero! She had complications through the delivery and that scared me for so many reasons. I was scared that she would not recover - I was scared that the added pain would make her change her mind - and I was scared that if something happened to her, her family wouldn't go through with the adoption. But she was fine, and is recovering - and she didn't change her mind. When she handed my son to me, I felt my heart melt instantly.

I stayed in the hospital with the birth mother and helped take care of her and my son for the duration of their hospital stay. I wouldn't change that for anything. It allowed me the chance to get to know the birth mother on a deeper level, and for her to see how much I will love her little baby.

My daughter is doing good with the transition - there are ups and downs of course. She has been an only child for over 12 years - so you can imagine. But she loves her little brother and she wants to take care of him and help me out with him.

My husband is in heaven. He finally has his son! I see true happiness when I look at him, holding our son. I am sure he cannot wait until our son is old enough to go fishing, riding a bike, or any other boy thing he can think of! :)

As for me - I haven't been this happy in many, many years. I would say at least 10 years. His birth and this adoption has completed my life! When I was told I could no longer have babies - a part of me was killed - but with his birth - that part came back to me. I couldn't love him more, even if I had given birth to him myself!