Monday, January 24, 2011

Being a Princess,,,,

I always related too closely to Snow White and Cinderella to have either be my favorite princess. I mean the evil step mother - wicked step sisters - the only thing I missed out on was the 7 Dwarfs - but I guess I could call my friends by those names. I always loved Sleeping Beauty when I was young. Come on, what wasn't to love? She had fairy godmothers - who loved and adored her - parents who would have given her the world - and a kingdom who thought she was the most important person! Now yes evil did strike her - but the fairy godmother's came to her rescue and instead of the evil killing her - it only made her sleep - and let's be honest we could all deal with more sleep - couldn't we? Then she is awakened by a handsome prince, who is her one true love - who has slain the evil and rescued her and they live happily ever after! How sweet! When I was a young teenager, Beauty and the Beast was released. WOW~ my all time favorite princess! Feisty, independent, intelligent, beautiful, loved by her father, and wasn't afraid of life. That's who I wanted to be - Belle! I loved when she found the castle and the "people" there! She wasn't afraid of anything - she viewed it as an adventure - a time to have fun. The only bad part to the entire movie was the fact that it taught little girls that you can tame beasts, and make bad men better - unless you figure into the fact that the Beast, underneath it all, was always a good man, and Gaston was always a bad man and would never have been changed - but that's putting too much thought into a Disney movie.

I guess you're wondering the point - there's not one really. I just started thinking about Princesses - and which one I would have wanted to portray. Sometimes I wish life had been a fairytale - then I would have known that the evil stepmother would have been punished - the evil stepsisters would have gotten what was coming to them - the father really would have truly loved the daughter - and the Prince - well I guess you could say that part of the story came true - because no matter how often my husband upsets me, leaves dirty clothes where they don't belong, falls asleep while we're watching a movie, or doesn't clean the kitchen properly - I know he loves me - and I know he would wrangle the moon and give it to me if I asked him. So I suppose I did get part of the happily ever after ending I was looking for!

Friday, January 7, 2011

New Year

Hello -

Wow it's been a long time since I've written - I suppose that means that a lot of good stuff has been going on! :)

September/October -- Hubby came home!!! I was so happy to see him and have him back at home with us - it was a good homecoming and we are all very happy that the deployment is behind us. :) We met with the birth mother and her mother, as well as her 1 year old son -- what an amazing and beautiful young woman the birth mother is. I was so impressed by her strength and courage. I am truly blessed to have been introduced to her! While I know the baby isn't due until March - I want to feel a connection with her and the baby - does that make sense? I want her to feel comfortable around us - to want us to raise her child.

My birthday was also in October - it was a good one - my Hubby and daughter took me to dinner, and the zoo - and all while I was wearing a tiara! :) I felt special, needed, loved - it was nice! It didn't hurt that I got diamonds too! :)

November - we learned that we will be adopting a SON!! WOW!!!! How amazing - right? I mean we have a daughter - we've done that - now we will get to raise a son together! I am so extremely amazed and in love!

December - well it's the holidays! Guess what happened? My parents moved to town!! I know it's strange - we have lived without family in the same town as us for 15 years - so now to have family living in the same town is weird!!! But I am optimistic that this will be a good move for all of us! :) Christmas was nice - everyone got what they wanted (especially our daughter). Around New Years we went to visit family back in the home state and while we were there we got to see the birth mother, her son, and her best friend - we also got to see our soon to be son! We were invited to an ultrasound appointment - it was magical!! Extremely amazing! He is so beautiful - even though I can't see everything perfectly - I already know he is beautiful!! I feel so blessed to have his birth mother in our lives - and I hope to continue that friendship and relationship into the future. For New Years we partied with our best friends - and it was great - no stress whatsoever! :)

January - so here we are in January! It's been a good month so far. Of course the stress of knowing the birth is in just 12 weeks (if the mom goes full term) that is a little nerve wracking. I'm a little scared of what the future holds - whether or not the adoption will go through with no complications is a fear - but I am trying to remain optimistic - positive - and encouraged that this baby (who we've already named) will be our son. I don't mind sharing him with his birth family - that's not even a problem for me, in the slightest, so I just hope that everything goes off as scheduled and everyone is happy. My heart is breaking for his birth mother - knowing how difficult this must be for her - but I am so grateful to her and what she is giving us is a pure miracle! :)

Well here goes another year under our belts - and on to 2011!! May this New Year bring us all the joys, wishes, and dreams, we've accumulated over the past years! :)